❝ It’s been a hot minute. Where have I been? In 2018, I: ☁ went into a freefall depression.☁ had a major breakdown and resulting PTSD.☁ took my comprehensive exams in the same period.☁ applied to several fellowships.☁ completed and passed said exams, including one with distinction.☁ won a prestigious dissertation fellowship.☁ became a doctoral …
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moodboard: jeanne d’arc
I recently read a brilliant re-imagining of the Sailor Moon franchise and it reminded why I love the series so much: the figure of redeemers. Throughout world history, they appear. Transcending fear, merging with death, and bringing renewal and warmth to the rest of us. I’m not really into dwelling on how a lot of …
Internet Roundup // 21.1.18
Welcome to the Working Week ☁ Sunday, January 21 I’ve been feeling off this week, and feeling bad about it – that nudge of not “being productive,” or rather, not performing it. But once I checked in with everyone, it became clear that my expectations for myself were unrealistic. I just got back from traveling …
A Sound Wednesday (17.1.2018): On Loop #2
A Sound Wednesday (17.01.2018): On Loop #2 from prismpower on 8tracks Radio.
Internet Roundup // 14.1.18
Welcome to the Working Week ☁ Sunday, January 14 I’m back from Rio de Janeiro, and the new semester starts this week. I’m in preparation mode for many things, and I will move head on into all of them. Here’s a linkroll: ☁ A guide to dissertating; I think it’s a good guide for everything grad …
Personal Archives
I recently wrote a longform essay on the history of web communities pre-social media. Or rather, I argued that despite being understood as ephemera, the fragments left over from dead websites provides folks (historians, archivists, whoever) great material to piece together the histories of digital life, especially since conflict and memory are the glue that …
I’m Always Coming on the Other Side
Patience is indeed a virtue, and practice. Among others and beside myself. Every moment is precious and an opportunity, but having that on my own terms is fundamental and non-negotiable. I’ll keep that in mind for the next time. I am my own architect, deusa, destroyer and redeemer, and hope. I decide.
Brief Retrospective: 2017 A.D.
2017 was my year of ownership: of joy, pain, and learning to learn all over again. It was a great year for personal growth. I dislike the idea that people must struggle in order to rise to a higher plane, because most suffering is unnecessary. But in a world were we like abbreviations and shortcuts; …
Meditation
“Rosa de frente con la vista hacia abajo” feat. Rosa Covarrubias Rolanda, by Carl van Vetchen. I feel: – gratitude – softness – deep care – deep love. I am working on my focus. See also: – Femme Too Deep by Baby Ange: “Focus as Resistance.” – Woodland Secrets by merritt k: “Gita Jackson.” – “Well, I guess …
History is not prescriptive.
Sailor Saturn & Sailor Moon in “The Shining Shooting Star: Saturn and the Messiah,” Sailor Moon S (February 11, 1995) “Indeed, some of us did not die. And what shall we do, we who did not die?” ____________ “The past is never dead. It is not even past.” _______________ What do you got to offer? …